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[04 Dec 2006|05:44am]
hey erik.k
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I said "kiss me, you're beautiful." [16 Oct 2006|02:18am]
These are truly the last days.

You grabbed my hand and we fell into it, like a daydream or a fever.

I write in my livejournal often.
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[05 May 2006|02:36pm]
Yesterday was just the eye of the storm.

It's funny how the best day of my life happened during the worst week of my life.
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Bliss [04 May 2006|11:21pm]
Today we went back to Philly.
My mom's so much better.. when she's conscious she's really alert. She can have real conversations and smile about things again. It was hard to look at her at first because of her eye and because she just sort of falls asleep all the time but I understand that that's what she needs to do in order to get better. She should come home tomorrow or the next day.
She just kept sleeping today, so me and my dad thought we should leave her alone. We went to a cute cafe called bonte. We had two amazing sandwiches and split them with eachother. He wanted to work and I wanted to go take photographs and buy a sigur ros CD and headphones so I headed off. It was beautiful out. The sky was so clear with a few beautiful little puffs of white and the streets were so much more full of life than Stroudsburg. I loved that feeling, like there's life around the whole area, especially after spending the week in a hospital where it just feels like theres so much darkness and so many familys getting bad news. I bought the CD and I bought the headphones and I went to love and continued to take some pictures, but not the sort of pictures I really expected to take. When I got there it was so lively and there was a black religious demonstration going on. They were so exciting. I know that a lot of things they were saying were religiously wrong but I kind of see things like that as examples of how excited I should be about the kingdom to come. It just made the day so much more beautiful, hearing all these people so active demonstrating love, even if it isn't the real thing. I popped in the sigur ros CD and sat by the fountain and took photos of these two pigeons that just looked so happy together. I love birds, even the dirty diseased kind. They're still so pleasant. I took pictures of people tourists trying to explain to other tourists how to pose in pictures so they could get the whole fountain in and everything. I took pictures of the museum in the background perfectly parallel to love. I liked how it was layed out like that. I love it when things are parallel. It's such a beautiful way of aligning things, geometrically or figuratively. I just looked at the sky and how full of life everything was around me and heard these excited people in the background of this most exciting song and felt this absolute feeling of bliss, this feeling where I wished that I could record this moment in my life and let every single person in the world experience it, because it just made me so happy.

Everything is always going to work out for the better, even with the end of the world.
If the earth can be so beautiful right now, I can't imagine what it will be like afterwards.
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The cup in your hands [27 Apr 2006|07:56pm]
"In the United states, I have a close friend named Jim Forest. When I first met him eight years ago, he was working with the Catholic Peace Fellowship. Last winter, Jim came to visit. I usually wash the dishes after we've finished the evening meal, before sitting down and drinking tea with everyone else. One night, Jim asked if he might do the dishes. I said, "Go ahead, but if you wash the dishes you must know the way to wash them." Jim replied, "Come on, you think I don't know how to wash the dishes?" I answered, "There are two ways to wash the dishes. The first is to wash the dishes in order to have clean dishes and the second is to wash the dishes in order to wash the dishes." Jim was delighted and said, "I choose the second way -- to wash the dishes in order to wash the dishes." From then on, Jim knew how to wash the dishes. I transferred the "responsibility" to him for an entire week.
"If while washing the dishes, we think only of the cup of tea that awaits us, thus hurrying to get the dishes out of the way as if they were a nuisance, then we are not "washing the dishes to wash the dishes." What's more, we are not alive during the time we are washing the dishes. In fact we are completely incapable of realizing the miracle of life while standing at the sink. If we can't wash the dishes, the chances are we won't be able to drink our tea either. While drinking the cup of tea, we will only be thinking of other things, barely aware of the cup in our hands. Thus we are sucked away into the future -- and we are incapable of actually living one minute of life." - Thich Nhat Hanh

I think that reading this book is going to help a lot with selflessness and diligence, from everything I've read so far. That's all I really want to be. Selfless, and a diligent servant of God.
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[26 Apr 2006|09:49am]
Today I cried so hard I threw up.

I wish it were possible for us to understand why things like these happen.

I wish I could think a rational thought.
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[18 Apr 2006|10:07pm]
I don't even know why I have a livejournal any more. I deleted every single livejournal friend. I don't write in it any more, with an exception to the past two days. Maybe I'm just EXPLODING WITH EMOTION. I doubt it, though. I'm not one of those girls. Any more.

I've started trying to keep track of which "Christian" holidays come from pagan roots and which holidays aren't. I feel bad thinking the holidays are stupid, because they're pagan and everything, but it doesn't seem right to me really to celebrate them anyways. They're fun and everything, but every time people were supposed to celebrate something in the bible it said specifically to celebrate them and now. All the feasts in the old testament... Passover... it was just so specific. It never said "This is the day I died. This is the day I rose. Now mark them down in history and celebrate them every year and replace all your pagan holidays that definately shouldn't be celebrated." It's dumb. It just doesn't make sense to me.

Christmas: "No one knows what day Jesus Christ was born on. From the biblical description, most historians believe that his birth probably occurred in September, approximately six months after Passover. One thing they agree on is that it is very unlikely that Jesus was born in December, since the bible records shepherds tending their sheep in the fields on that night. This is quite unlikely to have happened during a cold Judean winter. So why do we celebrate Christ’s birthday as Christmas, on December the 25th? The answer lies in the pagan origins of Christmas. In ancient Babylon, the feast of the Son of Isis (Goddess of Nature) was celebrated on December 25. Raucous partying, gluttonous eating and drinking, and gift-giving were traditions of this feast."

Easter:"Scholars, accepting the derivation proposed by the 8th-century English scholar St. Bede, believe the name Easter is thought to come from the Scandinavian "Ostra" and the Teutonic "Ostern" or "Eastre," both Goddesses of mythology signifying spring and fertility whose festival was celebrated on the day of the vernal equinox.
Traditions associated with the festival survive in the Easter rabbit, a symbol of fertility, and in colored easter eggs, originally painted with bright colors to represent the sunlight of spring, and used in Easter-egg rolling contests or given as gifts."

I really wanted to give blood but I found out legally, I won't ever be able to. I'm finally old enough and I can't even do it because I've been to England for long periods of time and they have mad cow disease. Every other disease has "until after this many years," but mad cow disease, never. Stupid mad cows and their stupid diseases.

I feel like I'm toooo cut off from the world. I don't want to be a part of the world but I feel like I barely talk to anyone any more and I don't want to become socially retarded. I don't want to be associated with people. So... how do I talk to people? It's so weird to think about.
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[17 Apr 2006|09:09pm]
"I'm a real christian, and seak the absolute truth of the bible. I don't presribe to the doctrine that whatever you believe is true for you, so commonly reffered to as Relative Truth.

The meaning is in the word. Relative truth, is like saying something is an inconclusive fact, it simply doesn't make sense. One either knows what the truth is, or they don't. That basically is me, I seek the truth of the gospel and obey the commands of Christ that are found therein." -Vinny Leseberg

It's good to know I have such great friends. Such real friends.
Friends who have the same will.
Friends who will push me to do what's right.
Friends who won't be annoyed that I'm pushing them to do whats right.
Friends that think its okay to be "ridiculously" opinionated.
They aren't our opinions though, they're Gods.
It isn't our will. It's God's.

I don't care if I don't talk to a single person in this town any more.
I don't care if I don't have anything to do any more.
I have the greatest friends in the world, and though most of them are at least 3 hours away...
They're still the best friends ever. It's still the best will ever. It's still the best opinions ever.
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[16 Jan 2006|06:42pm]
Today was the worst trip ever.

I woke up at 5:00 in England (That's midnight here).
We were packed up and ready to go to the airport at 5:30.
I can't brush my teeth early in the morning. It makes me sick.
I threw up right before we left.
I felt nauseas in the car.
I threw up again.
I couldn't lay down, I couldn't do anything to relax myself until I got home some time after 2:00 Eastern Time.
That's thirteen hours.
Worst. Flight. Ever.

I have that fight club feelin'.
Everythings a copy of a copy of a copy.
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[25 Dec 2005|06:56am]
So some time between thursday when I decided be delicious was the best scent ever and 4:00 this morning my parents bought it for me.

And a ton of other awesome stuff.

And get this, THE MAGIC BULLET.

I can't even remember how long I've been raving about how many amazing things those things can do.

Merry Christmas:D
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[24 Dec 2005|11:06pm]
"Actually grandad, Christmas is a pagan holiday and Jesus would probably hate you for celebrating it."

This is why I love the boondocks and this is why we aren't doing christmas trees and crap like that any more.
Everything Huey said was true.
Except that Jesus hates you.
I mean, all the history he said.
Watch the boondocks.
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[24 Dec 2005|09:20am]
merry christmas eve to all.
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[22 Dec 2005|11:02pm]
If anyone wants to buy me something expensive for christmas I'd real love some "be delicious" perfume made by DKNY.

Even the commercial smells good. Ahh.
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[16 Dec 2005|11:58pm]
I cried more watching King Kong than I did the Notebook.

What a great movie.
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[12 Dec 2005|06:10pm]
So this morning I couldn't find my knee support thing anywhere and on the way back from biology I stopped at CVS to get some new chapstick and a new knee supporty. Ate, got my new and awesome pants, got a few layers of clothes on, and headed up to camelback. Got to the top of the mountain, started going down. Easy, peasy. Got cocky. Tried to go off a jump right at the top of Mark Antony, a beginners trail. Fell. Hurt my wrist really bad, to the point of nausea.

Augh. I was looking so forward to my first day of snowboarding and I felt so sick I couldn't keep going after my first run.
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[12 Dec 2005|02:03am]
So my weekend: I worked. Every day since friday. All day. Today was Lindsay Maxwell's last day, and that sucks. I did two lab reports for biology. I saw two Just Friends and The Chronicles of Narnia. I didn't get to snowboard once because I worked until 4 or 5 every day, and nightboarding didn't start yet. It sucked. Hopefully I can go after class tomorrow, but seeing as it's 2 in the morning I'll probably want to take a nap instead. We got our England tickets today, which is cool because I get to see my family next month, but it also means that I have about 2 weeks to finish 2 units (thats 20 chapters, quizzes and 3 exams) of medeival history. I get to go to Syracuse the week after christmas.

Movie reviews: The chronicles of narnia sucked so much. Don't even bother. The first five minutes me and Miranda were crying, and then the rest of the movie we were making fun of it for being so ridiculously lame. Especially don't see it if you know anything about the bible, because it's so full of crap and predictable. It also isn't as accurate to the book as they made it sound in the real reviews. Go by Brittneys Journal's review though, and trust me, it sucked.
Just Married was great. The funnies were predictable, but half way through I honestly didn't know how it would end and that's hard to find these days. I laughed, I cried. It was all in all just good. All the actors fit their parts well. You know. Just goody.

I want to go boarding so bad.
I have orchestra all night tomorrow too. Aughh.
Maybe I'll just go on tuesday. I get out of class at like 9:30 and I have all night to get my high school work done.
Maybe I'll go for like an hour tomorrow.
I really want to go somewhere good this year.
I have like, the greatest board on the planet, the best pants on the planet, and I can't even sport them at a good mountain. Pffft.
American Dad is on so I'm going to go turn off the TV and go to bed finally.
I hate this show.
Why don't you just make a variation of Family Guy that sucks 10 times worse than family guy.
Oh, right, that's what it is.
Okay, family guy doesn't always suck, but most of the time, it sucks.
The Boondocks is funny, especially if you watch it from a black point of view.
I also learned today that Melado, unlike oreo, is not a derogatory term.
I'm glad I learned that.
Good and bad words are good to be able to distinguish.
<3 Brittney.
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[02 Dec 2005|10:49pm]
I got in to Penn State and I'm so excited.
My sister.. I'm not even sure graduated.
She went to beauty school.
She doesn't work at all.
My older brother definately didn't graduate.
He didn't feel like taking gym over summer school.
He's doing okay as a contractor.
My other brother graduated.
He didn't go to college. He worked as a chef.
He's still a chef.
Hes doing good.
Still: I'm the last available to actually go to college.
This is really big for me.
I don't know if that's dumb.
I'm so excited.
Its a big weight off my back.
Now I've got that other weight I like to call "getting through college."
I have to finish high school first, though.
I'll go worry about that now.
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[30 Nov 2005|04:03pm]
I can see out my window from here and damn, sometimes this town looks just so beautiful. The brick wall across the street with the naked trees and a few colorful leaves left with the sunset shining on it from the direction I can't see alone is just.. amazing. I think about it sometimes and I really don't want to leave. I think about it sometimes and I really feel like I need to get out. "I need to get OUT of here.. I'm in here.. and I need to get out of here... but I don't have much to work with. Well, I've got this table... and I've got the mirror. Yeah! The mirror! Alright.. now I can see the table. But I've already seen the table. I'm seeing what I saw. A saw!" Anyways. Sorry about that, crapneto tends to take over life. I was talking to Josh, my violin teacher the other day about it. We were talking about how Stroudsburg actually had off school on monday so people could go hunting with their dads. This town is SO full of hicks that we actually have the first day of hunting season off as a holiday. That's ridiculous. That's like, getting summer vacation off so we can go farm with our parents or some dumb crap. Haha. That is why there is summer vacation, incase nobody got the funny. Anyways, it's just stupid. Between that, and the amount of people who feel that the only thing left to do here is drugs and sex and alcohol... I just.. I need to escape. So many people say that, but I'm going to. I'm really going to. Maybe I'll come back later in life. Maybe once I've accomplished something, maybe once I've got some companionship... but I feel like there's really nothing here besides how beautiful autumn and spring can be. Winter can be beautiful but.. I bet its a lot more beautiful up in Vermont or something. I'm sure everybody gets that, though. I love this town sometimes just... It just isn't enough for me. My standards have raised so high in the past year that even a town isn't good enough for me. I feel ridiculous sometimes but I'd way rather have high standards and do nothing with anybody than have no standards and do everything and screw up my life. Plus the bible says not to have inappropriate relationships with unbelievers and everything, so there isn't much for me here. I'd like to atleast be within a reasonable driving distance from Syracuse so I could go wherever.

I don't have much else to say, but this is on the Penn State My Application Status page:


Status: As of 11/28/2005, we have reached a decision regarding your application. You will receive this decision in the mail.

I can't wait to find out.
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